2008

It seems like it has whizzed by. Yet certain memories are stuck in slow motion, some happy, some not. 2008 has been nothing like I ever thought it could be. I have been tagged by the cynical one. And that! Strangely, one thing yours truly is sure than a Long Island Iced Tea is that she has become more cynical over the past year, if not anything else. And no Sach, that's not coz you have been rubbing off on me. :P

During 2008,

- Lost hope on the one thing that I truly ever believed in, in my life. Though I am glad of how things turned out, I still don't know how deep the scar is. Found myself coming out, jaded than ever.

-constantly keep finding myself looking into my life from outside the fishbowl. Not sure whether I truly feel anything anymore. Not sure whether things I thought I felt are even real.

-made a few new quite colourful friends. All younger than me, yet the perfect package. :) And I am grateful, since I don't click easily and I know I wouldn't have been able to get by without the distractions I had thanks to them.

-said goodbye to another few good friends, who has been taken away by the marriage movement. They are all faraway. Too far. I now know that it's very difficult to be maintain a similar bonding after they get married, despite everything said.

-got to a level of *hick* borderline alcoholism I think. *hick* Nay, I can control myself. :P But it doesn't help that all the new friends you are making are hardcore into the happy portion.

-had a couple of younger men, who showed interest in me. I find men in my own age very immature still, thus the idea of a younger brain was a huge no-no, even though the hot browned bodies were tempting. I want to write this fact down, so that I can smirk at myself 20-30 years from now when I am a old crazy gadget lady ( vs. becoming a crazy cat lady). If only you gave up on finding a mature, funny AND intelligent alien, you would be a happy grandma spice now, you silly old cow.

-earned up for all the immature things I compromised on, for the last 3-4 years. I let go this year. And was happy doing things my way, on my own morals and not trying so hard to stand with one leg skewered on that high pedestal. Proud of myself for learning to call it quits.

-contrary to what the above point might suggest, inside I grew up far more than what I let anyone else in on.

-actually started writing on the blog I created more than a year ago, which in turn was on the coming for more than 2 years. lol. maara procras eh?

-lost all hope on finding a job I think I deserve. 2009 is not getting any left over hope.

-the year has been one of extreme highs and lows, and tough decisions. I thought nothing could top 2004 , but 2008 proved me wrong. Wonder whether it comes with the Olympics always.

This was tough to write. Took far longer than I wanted to spend on it, nostalgia has a funny way of taking over. I just hope that everything will turn out for the better if not the best. I am scared to have any expectations at all now. So fickle! this life.


postscript: In my emo state I actually forgot to tag anyone yesterday. DarksideDaily and MiddleChild you are it. I believe the original tag went something like "So this is christmas..and what have you done.."

One more thing I forgot.. I left a city and people I grew to love over the past few years and returned to SL. For good I think. :S I might not return there soon enough, and I think I am still blissfully ignorant about it.