the newest plan is...

Scene - a conversation online.

Spice: ayyoo i wanna live by mysefl
her: hahahaha
her: yeah me too! but then i get so lonely by myself
her: and den i miss them
her: sigh
Spice: true , that too is there
Spice: lets get married soon then
Spice: want to marry me ?
her: hahahahahaha..yeah i really want toooo
her: yes yes
her: ok so we'll get married and we'll have our man whores to satisfy us...works?
Spice: YES!!!! perfect. who would be those perfect men now?

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Spice: do you really want to get married soon?
her: hahaha...as in actually get married?
Spice: not to me. i mean. u know
her: hahaha...i get it..like heterosexual marriage..like normal ppl"?
her: lol..yes i do wna get married
her: but i need to find the guy!
Spice: sigh. yes
Spice: i dnt know what i want
her: i know wat i want
her: i want to get married to dis tall, dark and handsome guy whoz totally romantic and head over heels in love her: with me and i want to earn lots and lots and lots of money and build a house of my own.
and oh i want a very exciting and fun job...
Spice: lol.. sounds like something I would have said few years back
Spice: why couldnt one of us be a guy!
her: and den 1-2yrs after my marriage, i want beautiful kids!!
her: hahahahahahahah
her: den we wouldnt have had been living in the penthosue togetherr silly!
Spice: well u want to have a sex change?
Spice: or should i?
Spice: get a bit darker, n handsomer.
her: hahahahaha...
her: well...i am a bit of a gurlie gurl, and u are the taller one
Spice: but I dnt want to grow a penis.
her: :D
her: and i wouldnt want u to go through the pain of giving birth!
her: ooo i want a peniss!!
her: i wna be able to pee without sitting on those gross public toilets!!!!
Spice: no no. u can have the birth pains and the taking care of kids part.
Spice: but. how are we going to do all that. with you wanting a penis too
her: hahahah
Spice: i'll tell you. forget about the penis.
her: hahaha...okayy
her: anything for u my love
her: :P
Spice: you willing to do the babies,nappy changes and crying parts?
Spice: ooh what about cooking? Are you gonna learn cooking anytime missy?
Spice: this mister likes her meals yummy and on time
her: hahahahahahah
her: i don mind the cooking but u gta do the gross stuff like taking out the garbage
her: and dealing with the bills
Spice: cool.
her: hahaha
her: oo and the babys poooppp
her: pls do that
Spice: okay, as long as you handle the crying. and consoling.
her: haha..np
her: I WANT A BABY s!!
her: i want to buy one for like a couple of hours
Spice: I'll give you one. don't worry my love.
Spice: soon soon
Spice: have some patience
her: hahahahahaha
her: nyways hot stuff..i gtg now
her: i like our plan so dont forget bout it
Spice: alrighty
Spice: noway hosey


So the newest plan is, to get a sex change into a man without a penis and marry my bestfriend in Br.

2008

It seems like it has whizzed by. Yet certain memories are stuck in slow motion, some happy, some not. 2008 has been nothing like I ever thought it could be. I have been tagged by the cynical one. And that! Strangely, one thing yours truly is sure than a Long Island Iced Tea is that she has become more cynical over the past year, if not anything else. And no Sach, that's not coz you have been rubbing off on me. :P

During 2008,

- Lost hope on the one thing that I truly ever believed in, in my life. Though I am glad of how things turned out, I still don't know how deep the scar is. Found myself coming out, jaded than ever.

-constantly keep finding myself looking into my life from outside the fishbowl. Not sure whether I truly feel anything anymore. Not sure whether things I thought I felt are even real.

-made a few new quite colourful friends. All younger than me, yet the perfect package. :) And I am grateful, since I don't click easily and I know I wouldn't have been able to get by without the distractions I had thanks to them.

-said goodbye to another few good friends, who has been taken away by the marriage movement. They are all faraway. Too far. I now know that it's very difficult to be maintain a similar bonding after they get married, despite everything said.

-got to a level of *hick* borderline alcoholism I think. *hick* Nay, I can control myself. :P But it doesn't help that all the new friends you are making are hardcore into the happy portion.

-had a couple of younger men, who showed interest in me. I find men in my own age very immature still, thus the idea of a younger brain was a huge no-no, even though the hot browned bodies were tempting. I want to write this fact down, so that I can smirk at myself 20-30 years from now when I am a old crazy gadget lady ( vs. becoming a crazy cat lady). If only you gave up on finding a mature, funny AND intelligent alien, you would be a happy grandma spice now, you silly old cow.

-earned up for all the immature things I compromised on, for the last 3-4 years. I let go this year. And was happy doing things my way, on my own morals and not trying so hard to stand with one leg skewered on that high pedestal. Proud of myself for learning to call it quits.

-contrary to what the above point might suggest, inside I grew up far more than what I let anyone else in on.

-actually started writing on the blog I created more than a year ago, which in turn was on the coming for more than 2 years. lol. maara procras eh?

-lost all hope on finding a job I think I deserve. 2009 is not getting any left over hope.

-the year has been one of extreme highs and lows, and tough decisions. I thought nothing could top 2004 , but 2008 proved me wrong. Wonder whether it comes with the Olympics always.

This was tough to write. Took far longer than I wanted to spend on it, nostalgia has a funny way of taking over. I just hope that everything will turn out for the better if not the best. I am scared to have any expectations at all now. So fickle! this life.


postscript: In my emo state I actually forgot to tag anyone yesterday. DarksideDaily and MiddleChild you are it. I believe the original tag went something like "So this is christmas..and what have you done.."

One more thing I forgot.. I left a city and people I grew to love over the past few years and returned to SL. For good I think. :S I might not return there soon enough, and I think I am still blissfully ignorant about it.

Of 2 hour study breaks & friends

It's been sometime, but I just received this pics. Involved a lot of sweet gluttony, insults shouted across doorways, tables, and doodles written on whiteboards, banisters, tables and walls. We've marked our area in our apartment not sparing any nook or corner. Group studying ambitions always ended with us slamming doors and telling eachother to stay awayy.. and half an hour later the same bunch can be found huddled over a plate of chicken tandoori. This is how we studdddied..

we had a large boxful to last 2 weeks of incessant eating

my roomi (art courtesy of yours truly)

my roomi

I think this was supposed to be me. :P
and ofcourse the shot to end the exam trauma

goodbye message


Goodluck to all those studying for their exams..