the newest plan is...

Scene - a conversation online.

Spice: ayyoo i wanna live by mysefl
her: hahahaha
her: yeah me too! but then i get so lonely by myself
her: and den i miss them
her: sigh
Spice: true , that too is there
Spice: lets get married soon then
Spice: want to marry me ?
her: hahahahahaha..yeah i really want toooo
her: yes yes
her: ok so we'll get married and we'll have our man whores to satisfy us...works?
Spice: YES!!!! perfect. who would be those perfect men now?

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Spice: do you really want to get married soon?
her: hahaha...as in actually get married?
Spice: not to me. i mean. u know
her: hahaha...i get it..like heterosexual marriage..like normal ppl"?
her: lol..yes i do wna get married
her: but i need to find the guy!
Spice: sigh. yes
Spice: i dnt know what i want
her: i know wat i want
her: i want to get married to dis tall, dark and handsome guy whoz totally romantic and head over heels in love her: with me and i want to earn lots and lots and lots of money and build a house of my own.
and oh i want a very exciting and fun job...
Spice: lol.. sounds like something I would have said few years back
Spice: why couldnt one of us be a guy!
her: and den 1-2yrs after my marriage, i want beautiful kids!!
her: hahahahahahahah
her: den we wouldnt have had been living in the penthosue togetherr silly!
Spice: well u want to have a sex change?
Spice: or should i?
Spice: get a bit darker, n handsomer.
her: hahahahaha...
her: well...i am a bit of a gurlie gurl, and u are the taller one
Spice: but I dnt want to grow a penis.
her: :D
her: and i wouldnt want u to go through the pain of giving birth!
her: ooo i want a peniss!!
her: i wna be able to pee without sitting on those gross public toilets!!!!
Spice: no no. u can have the birth pains and the taking care of kids part.
Spice: but. how are we going to do all that. with you wanting a penis too
her: hahahah
Spice: i'll tell you. forget about the penis.
her: hahaha...okayy
her: anything for u my love
her: :P
Spice: you willing to do the babies,nappy changes and crying parts?
Spice: ooh what about cooking? Are you gonna learn cooking anytime missy?
Spice: this mister likes her meals yummy and on time
her: hahahahahahah
her: i don mind the cooking but u gta do the gross stuff like taking out the garbage
her: and dealing with the bills
Spice: cool.
her: hahaha
her: oo and the babys poooppp
her: pls do that
Spice: okay, as long as you handle the crying. and consoling.
her: haha..np
her: I WANT A BABY s!!
her: i want to buy one for like a couple of hours
Spice: I'll give you one. don't worry my love.
Spice: soon soon
Spice: have some patience
her: hahahahahaha
her: nyways hot stuff..i gtg now
her: i like our plan so dont forget bout it
Spice: alrighty
Spice: noway hosey


So the newest plan is, to get a sex change into a man without a penis and marry my bestfriend in Br.

Unshattered, yet.

Basking in the memories of all the could have beens,
In the afterglow of lovers gone by.
Noone can surprise me now
other than you
other than you.

Would you come along?
If you knew everything I had to say
Would you come along?

You and I,
searching for the reasons for tonight.
It could all be wonderful, we know
But if I told you now everything I had to say
Would you come along?
Would you come along?



Listening to INXS

dreaming of parallel worlds

Me
Is a trance junkie
who made a field day-eve out of independence day!

one month into 2009 and I

suddenly find myself in the middle of so many getaways and events that I feel guilty about everything. It's too many good things to be happening at the same time. to me atleast. I've been out for the last 2 weekends. Was just invited to an excursion to Arugambay this weekend, where I already had planned to go for the perahera, and a birthday party sort of thing. Next weekend again 2 events, then again I plan to cancel on all of them. Suddenly feeling very antisocial. And the funny thing is all of them are with people I hardly know. Interesting change of personality from me, since I hardly hang out with strangers, though I've always tripped around the idea. The arugambay one is very very tempting, wish I had the freedom and peace of mind to just say yes and go. I've been such a grinch for the last 3 days that I myself wouldn't like to be with me! Then again I just might hide it from me as well. oh well.
I want to be a bubbly annoying rainbows and butterfly person sipping cute lady drinks.

living with myself.

Can a person want some of the simplest things in life
yet make it all complex by wanting two polarized mutually exclusive versions at the same time?

Can a person converse so much with their everyday people, yet not reveal the most personal demons and dreams in their lives but appear to be doing so, just coz it's easier to define certain things ?

I've been told I am a provider. and a link that holds mutltitude of personalities together. I don't see it.

Sometime's I do give a shit. a lot! about every minute issue in other peoples lives that they wonder why I worry and what my hidden agenda is. I don't have one. it seems everybody out there has a underlying scheme for most 'friendly' interactions they have.

and there comes the times where I want to be left alone.

I do hate overkill. and being highly sensitive to the slightest inclination of deep human emotion that it wakes up my own demons.

I know. I don't make sense. I am not trying to. heck, I just need to vent it out.

Pimpesque

and ugly. check out the body kit!

it only need some gold rims..

sing me a lovesong

Baby don't you cry, gonna make a pie,

gonna make a pie with a heart in the middle.
Baby don't be blue, gonna make for you,
gonna make a pie with a heart in the middle.
Gonna be a pie from heaven above,
gonna be filled with strawberry love.

Baby don't you cry, gonna make a pie,
and hold you forever in the middle of my heart....

feeling bittersweet. wanted to hear a lovesong.