sleepy warm breath nuzzling on a neck
stolen butterfly kisses on a chocolate shoulder blade.
wandering fingertips on a nestled arm
tiny little goosebumps in its wake.
soft love touch on a winding waist
tingly toes down entangled legs.
electric chill winding up a spine
warm cosy feeling, lazy smiles,
a backward glance.
She has already melted
from your soft fiery love..
Tuesday, 17 February 2009
Monday, 9 February 2009
Nakshastra time!
Not in the exact mood write much these days, thus the random details and sneak peeks. With the boredom running at it's peek, I decided to do a horoscope thingy a friend sent. I don't believe in them, but found the results to be very interesting and freaky. These things have the effect that makes you almost want to believe in them..
Sun Sign: Scorpio
Rising Sign: Scorpio
Life Path Number: 6
Chinese Sign: Pig
Element: Water
Mode: Fixed
Ruler: Mars and Pluto
Color: Blood Red, Garnet Red, Brown
Famous Scorpios:
Marie Antoinette, Richard Burton, Madame Curie, Michael Dukakis, Larry Flynt, Bill Gates, Whoopi Goldberg, Grace Kelly, Vivien Leigh, Demi Moore, Burt Lancaster, Roy Lichtenstein, Martin Luther, Claude Monet, Georgia O'Keeffe, Pablo Picasso, Julia Roberts, Theodore Roosevelt.
Strengths:
Charismatic, competent, courageous, determined, honest, loyal, magnetic, passionate, profound, proud, reliable, sharp-witted
Weaknesses:
Jealous, merciless, obsessive, passive-aggressive, secretive, selective, self-destructive, speculative, vicious
Scorpio, the eighth sign of the zodiac, is best characterized by passion, intensity, and emotionality. You are considered the most powerful and extreme sign of the zodiac, because you deal with the process of fundamental transformation on all levels. Pluto is your ruler, Scorpio, and is known as the planet of permanent change and transformation. It is also associated with sex, the life cycle of birth and death, and regeneration.
You are the second of the three water signs. Pluto’s influence makes you a charismatic, yet enigmatic person. While you may appear serene on the surface, you contain a magnetic intensity and powerfully hypnotic personality, belied only by a penetrating stare of deep intelligence.
Scorpio, you rule the eighth house of the chart, which is associated with other people’s money, possessions, and values, as well as wealth received through inheritance; it also describes how and to what extent we commit, and bond with our partner, both on a sexual and emotional level.
Yours is a fixed sign, which means that you are steadfast in adversity. Once you put your mind to something, you display self-discipline and staying power. You work stoically to achieve your goals – no matter the cost!
Scorpio Rising, you have a kind of autonomy that no other ascendant seems to have. You are willing to risk your live in order to accomplish your goals. You pursue your objectives with a tremendous, fixed, emotional intensity, and are able to draw on hidden sources of power.
You try to always be in control of situations, so that you don’t need to depend on anyone. You avoid feeling vulnerable at any price! Your obsession with staying on top of everything becomes a passionate battle for power.
While you may appear composed and self-possessed on the surface, you contain a charismatic intensity and mesmerizing personality beneath the surface, much like an active volcano before eruption. It’s very hard for others to resist you, when you want to draw them into your net, because of your mysterious magnetism.
Your universe is infinite, deep, and spiritual, and people who decide to venture into it, can’t help but being touched by its unfathomable atmosphere. However, your universe is not a trap, it is rather a way for you to share an intensely emotional experience. Yet, your intimate world is not easy to reach, because it is hidden and secret. If someone wants to explore and discover it, they need to put a lot of effort, intensity, and time into it.
If your Life-Path number is SIX, a sense of responsibility will likely be prominent for you. SIXES are considered to be the most domestic of numbers and live a path related to leadership through example. This assumption of responsibility generally means that as a SIX, you’re always there to help others in any way you can. In fact, you must need to feel useful in order to be truly happy.
Those with a SIX Life-Path are usually very versatile and can communicate across any generation gap. SIXES are idealistic and usually recognize that wisdom, understanding, and balance are the cornerstones to assume responsibility in the best possible way.
It is common for SIXES to be devoted to their families and homes. This is usually the first priority for a SIX with helping the community coming a close second. Key words for a SIX Life-Path are responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, empathy, and family.
It can be challenging for some SIXES to take on the responsibility for what’s around them in a healthy balance. Careful planning and consideration for the self as well as others will alleviate feelings of overwhelm or guilt. Be careful not to be too critical or hard on yourself if you can’t do it all. Your path is one of assuming only what you are able.
Honest and upright, you advance in life like a tranquil bulldozer. You hate lies, hypocrites, and artifice. If you do something bad you feel terrible and guilty about it for a long time after the fact. For your family and friends you are generous and helpful. Sometimes you are even a little bit too generous because you don't know how to say no. People don't hesitate taking advantage of your good nature.
Underneath your exterior hides a ferocious determination for your inner codes to be respected. Nobody can impose their will on you unless you decide to let them. You make your decisions and take responsibility for your failures in private. You don't blame others for your mistakes. When there is a conflict, you take cover until the storm has passed. Others may criticize you for preferring to run rather than fight but raised voices, fights, and power games revile you. If your back is against the wall with no escape possible you become a daunting and violent adversary.
Behind your apparent good nature you hide your hypersensitivity and soul of a gambler. You love to experience all the pleasures that life has to offer to a maximum. Your sensuality and your taste for pleasure make you an expert in love - especially physical love. Your only risk is falling into lustful ways!
(urm... who is reading my crystal ball out there!!!)
Sun Sign: Scorpio
Rising Sign: Scorpio
Life Path Number: 6
Chinese Sign: Pig
Element: Water
Mode: Fixed
Ruler: Mars and Pluto
Color: Blood Red, Garnet Red, Brown
Famous Scorpios:
Marie Antoinette, Richard Burton, Madame Curie, Michael Dukakis, Larry Flynt, Bill Gates, Whoopi Goldberg, Grace Kelly, Vivien Leigh, Demi Moore, Burt Lancaster, Roy Lichtenstein, Martin Luther, Claude Monet, Georgia O'Keeffe, Pablo Picasso, Julia Roberts, Theodore Roosevelt.
Strengths:
Charismatic, competent, courageous, determined, honest, loyal, magnetic, passionate, profound, proud, reliable, sharp-witted
Weaknesses:
Jealous, merciless, obsessive, passive-aggressive, secretive, selective, self-destructive, speculative, vicious
Scorpio, the eighth sign of the zodiac, is best characterized by passion, intensity, and emotionality. You are considered the most powerful and extreme sign of the zodiac, because you deal with the process of fundamental transformation on all levels. Pluto is your ruler, Scorpio, and is known as the planet of permanent change and transformation. It is also associated with sex, the life cycle of birth and death, and regeneration.
You are the second of the three water signs. Pluto’s influence makes you a charismatic, yet enigmatic person. While you may appear serene on the surface, you contain a magnetic intensity and powerfully hypnotic personality, belied only by a penetrating stare of deep intelligence.
Scorpio, you rule the eighth house of the chart, which is associated with other people’s money, possessions, and values, as well as wealth received through inheritance; it also describes how and to what extent we commit, and bond with our partner, both on a sexual and emotional level.
Yours is a fixed sign, which means that you are steadfast in adversity. Once you put your mind to something, you display self-discipline and staying power. You work stoically to achieve your goals – no matter the cost!
Scorpio Rising, you have a kind of autonomy that no other ascendant seems to have. You are willing to risk your live in order to accomplish your goals. You pursue your objectives with a tremendous, fixed, emotional intensity, and are able to draw on hidden sources of power.
You try to always be in control of situations, so that you don’t need to depend on anyone. You avoid feeling vulnerable at any price! Your obsession with staying on top of everything becomes a passionate battle for power.
While you may appear composed and self-possessed on the surface, you contain a charismatic intensity and mesmerizing personality beneath the surface, much like an active volcano before eruption. It’s very hard for others to resist you, when you want to draw them into your net, because of your mysterious magnetism.
Your universe is infinite, deep, and spiritual, and people who decide to venture into it, can’t help but being touched by its unfathomable atmosphere. However, your universe is not a trap, it is rather a way for you to share an intensely emotional experience. Yet, your intimate world is not easy to reach, because it is hidden and secret. If someone wants to explore and discover it, they need to put a lot of effort, intensity, and time into it.
If your Life-Path number is SIX, a sense of responsibility will likely be prominent for you. SIXES are considered to be the most domestic of numbers and live a path related to leadership through example. This assumption of responsibility generally means that as a SIX, you’re always there to help others in any way you can. In fact, you must need to feel useful in order to be truly happy.
Those with a SIX Life-Path are usually very versatile and can communicate across any generation gap. SIXES are idealistic and usually recognize that wisdom, understanding, and balance are the cornerstones to assume responsibility in the best possible way.
It is common for SIXES to be devoted to their families and homes. This is usually the first priority for a SIX with helping the community coming a close second. Key words for a SIX Life-Path are responsibility, protection, nurturing, community, balance, empathy, and family.
It can be challenging for some SIXES to take on the responsibility for what’s around them in a healthy balance. Careful planning and consideration for the self as well as others will alleviate feelings of overwhelm or guilt. Be careful not to be too critical or hard on yourself if you can’t do it all. Your path is one of assuming only what you are able.
Honest and upright, you advance in life like a tranquil bulldozer. You hate lies, hypocrites, and artifice. If you do something bad you feel terrible and guilty about it for a long time after the fact. For your family and friends you are generous and helpful. Sometimes you are even a little bit too generous because you don't know how to say no. People don't hesitate taking advantage of your good nature.
Underneath your exterior hides a ferocious determination for your inner codes to be respected. Nobody can impose their will on you unless you decide to let them. You make your decisions and take responsibility for your failures in private. You don't blame others for your mistakes. When there is a conflict, you take cover until the storm has passed. Others may criticize you for preferring to run rather than fight but raised voices, fights, and power games revile you. If your back is against the wall with no escape possible you become a daunting and violent adversary.
Behind your apparent good nature you hide your hypersensitivity and soul of a gambler. You love to experience all the pleasures that life has to offer to a maximum. Your sensuality and your taste for pleasure make you an expert in love - especially physical love. Your only risk is falling into lustful ways!
(urm... who is reading my crystal ball out there!!!)
Saturday, 7 February 2009
the newest plan is...
Scene - a conversation online.
Spice: ayyoo i wanna live by mysefl
her: hahahaha
her: yeah me too! but then i get so lonely by myself
her: and den i miss them
her: sigh
Spice: true , that too is there
Spice: lets get married soon then
Spice: want to marry me ?
her: hahahahahaha..yeah i really want toooo
her: yes yes
her: ok so we'll get married and we'll have our man whores to satisfy us...works?
Spice: YES!!!! perfect. who would be those perfect men now?
--------------------------
Spice: do you really want to get married soon?
her: hahaha...as in actually get married?
Spice: not to me. i mean. u know
her: hahaha...i get it..like heterosexual marriage..like normal ppl"?
her: lol..yes i do wna get married
her: but i need to find the guy!
Spice: sigh. yes
Spice: i dnt know what i want
her: i know wat i want
her: i want to get married to dis tall, dark and handsome guy whoz totally romantic and head over heels in love her: with me and i want to earn lots and lots and lots of money and build a house of my own.
and oh i want a very exciting and fun job...
Spice: lol.. sounds like something I would have said few years back
Spice: why couldnt one of us be a guy!
her: and den 1-2yrs after my marriage, i want beautiful kids!!
her: hahahahahahahah
her: den we wouldnt have had been living in the penthosue togetherr silly!
Spice: well u want to have a sex change?
Spice: or should i?
Spice: get a bit darker, n handsomer.
her: hahahahaha...
her: well...i am a bit of a gurlie gurl, and u are the taller one
Spice: but I dnt want to grow a penis.
her: :D
her: and i wouldnt want u to go through the pain of giving birth!
her: ooo i want a peniss!!
her: i wna be able to pee without sitting on those gross public toilets!!!!
Spice: no no. u can have the birth pains and the taking care of kids part.
Spice: but. how are we going to do all that. with you wanting a penis too
her: hahahah
Spice: i'll tell you. forget about the penis.
her: hahaha...okayy
her: anything for u my love
her: :P
Spice: you willing to do the babies,nappy changes and crying parts?
Spice: ooh what about cooking? Are you gonna learn cooking anytime missy?
Spice: this mister likes her meals yummy and on time
her: hahahahahahah
her: i don mind the cooking but u gta do the gross stuff like taking out the garbage
her: and dealing with the bills
Spice: cool.
her: hahaha
her: oo and the babys poooppp
her: pls do that
Spice: okay, as long as you handle the crying. and consoling.
her: haha..np
her: I WANT A BABY s!!
her: i want to buy one for like a couple of hours
Spice: I'll give you one. don't worry my love.
Spice: soon soon
Spice: have some patience
her: hahahahahaha
her: nyways hot stuff..i gtg now
her: i like our plan so dont forget bout it
Spice: alrighty
Spice: noway hosey
So the newest plan is, to get a sex change into a man without a penis and marry my bestfriend in Br.
Spice: ayyoo i wanna live by mysefl
her: hahahaha
her: yeah me too! but then i get so lonely by myself
her: and den i miss them
her: sigh
Spice: true , that too is there
Spice: lets get married soon then
Spice: want to marry me ?
her: hahahahahaha..yeah i really want toooo
her: yes yes
her: ok so we'll get married and we'll have our man whores to satisfy us...works?
Spice: YES!!!! perfect. who would be those perfect men now?
--------------------------
Spice: do you really want to get married soon?
her: hahaha...as in actually get married?
Spice: not to me. i mean. u know
her: hahaha...i get it..like heterosexual marriage..like normal ppl"?
her: lol..yes i do wna get married
her: but i need to find the guy!
Spice: sigh. yes
Spice: i dnt know what i want
her: i know wat i want
her: i want to get married to dis tall, dark and handsome guy whoz totally romantic and head over heels in love her: with me and i want to earn lots and lots and lots of money and build a house of my own.
and oh i want a very exciting and fun job...
Spice: lol.. sounds like something I would have said few years back
Spice: why couldnt one of us be a guy!
her: and den 1-2yrs after my marriage, i want beautiful kids!!
her: hahahahahahahah
her: den we wouldnt have had been living in the penthosue togetherr silly!
Spice: well u want to have a sex change?
Spice: or should i?
Spice: get a bit darker, n handsomer.
her: hahahahaha...
her: well...i am a bit of a gurlie gurl, and u are the taller one
Spice: but I dnt want to grow a penis.
her: :D
her: and i wouldnt want u to go through the pain of giving birth!
her: ooo i want a peniss!!
her: i wna be able to pee without sitting on those gross public toilets!!!!
Spice: no no. u can have the birth pains and the taking care of kids part.
Spice: but. how are we going to do all that. with you wanting a penis too
her: hahahah
Spice: i'll tell you. forget about the penis.
her: hahaha...okayy
her: anything for u my love
her: :P
Spice: you willing to do the babies,nappy changes and crying parts?
Spice: ooh what about cooking? Are you gonna learn cooking anytime missy?
Spice: this mister likes her meals yummy and on time
her: hahahahahahah
her: i don mind the cooking but u gta do the gross stuff like taking out the garbage
her: and dealing with the bills
Spice: cool.
her: hahaha
her: oo and the babys poooppp
her: pls do that
Spice: okay, as long as you handle the crying. and consoling.
her: haha..np
her: I WANT A BABY s!!
her: i want to buy one for like a couple of hours
Spice: I'll give you one. don't worry my love.
Spice: soon soon
Spice: have some patience
her: hahahahahaha
her: nyways hot stuff..i gtg now
her: i like our plan so dont forget bout it
Spice: alrighty
Spice: noway hosey
So the newest plan is, to get a sex change into a man without a penis and marry my bestfriend in Br.
Friday, 6 February 2009
Unshattered, yet.
Basking in the memories of all the could have beens,
In the afterglow of lovers gone by.
Noone can surprise me now
other than you
other than you.
Would you come along?
If you knew everything I had to say
Would you come along?
You and I,
searching for the reasons for tonight.
It could all be wonderful, we know
But if I told you now everything I had to say
Would you come along?
Would you come along?
Listening to INXS
In the afterglow of lovers gone by.
Noone can surprise me now
other than you
other than you.
Would you come along?
If you knew everything I had to say
Would you come along?
You and I,
searching for the reasons for tonight.
It could all be wonderful, we know
But if I told you now everything I had to say
Would you come along?
Would you come along?
Listening to INXS
Thursday, 5 February 2009
Wednesday, 4 February 2009
one month into 2009 and I
suddenly find myself in the middle of so many getaways and events that I feel guilty about everything. It's too many good things to be happening at the same time. to me atleast. I've been out for the last 2 weekends. Was just invited to an excursion to Arugambay this weekend, where I already had planned to go for the perahera, and a birthday party sort of thing. Next weekend again 2 events, then again I plan to cancel on all of them. Suddenly feeling very antisocial. And the funny thing is all of them are with people I hardly know. Interesting change of personality from me, since I hardly hang out with strangers, though I've always tripped around the idea. The arugambay one is very very tempting, wish I had the freedom and peace of mind to just say yes and go. I've been such a grinch for the last 3 days that I myself wouldn't like to be with me! Then again I just might hide it from me as well. oh well.
I want to be a bubbly annoying rainbows and butterfly person sipping cute lady drinks.
I want to be a bubbly annoying rainbows and butterfly person sipping cute lady drinks.
Monday, 2 February 2009
living with myself.
Can a person want some of the simplest things in life
yet make it all complex by wanting two polarized mutually exclusive versions at the same time?
Can a person converse so much with their everyday people, yet not reveal the most personal demons and dreams in their lives but appear to be doing so, just coz it's easier to define certain things ?
I've been told I am a provider. and a link that holds mutltitude of personalities together. I don't see it.
Sometime's I do give a shit. a lot! about every minute issue in other peoples lives that they wonder why I worry and what my hidden agenda is. I don't have one. it seems everybody out there has a underlying scheme for most 'friendly' interactions they have.
and there comes the times where I want to be left alone.
I do hate overkill. and being highly sensitive to the slightest inclination of deep human emotion that it wakes up my own demons.
I know. I don't make sense. I am not trying to. heck, I just need to vent it out.
yet make it all complex by wanting two polarized mutually exclusive versions at the same time?
Can a person converse so much with their everyday people, yet not reveal the most personal demons and dreams in their lives but appear to be doing so, just coz it's easier to define certain things ?
I've been told I am a provider. and a link that holds mutltitude of personalities together. I don't see it.
Sometime's I do give a shit. a lot! about every minute issue in other peoples lives that they wonder why I worry and what my hidden agenda is. I don't have one. it seems everybody out there has a underlying scheme for most 'friendly' interactions they have.
and there comes the times where I want to be left alone.
I do hate overkill. and being highly sensitive to the slightest inclination of deep human emotion that it wakes up my own demons.
I know. I don't make sense. I am not trying to. heck, I just need to vent it out.
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